Happiness

Me and MountainSpirit were talking today. I'm a very passive person. I let things pass by me and try to stay happy and not cause trouble. MountainSpirit (sry id link you to her blog, but a. i don't know how, and b. shes the only one who reads my blog anyway) is not. She likes to fight things out and she ussually wins. Shes strong and powerful. I admire it greatly, but it just doesn't work for me. For me if somethings bothering me, i gentely confront it and then i let it pass by, and i try to remain heppy. Today somethings were pissing me off. I wasn't happy about it, but what good does being unhappy do for you? So I smiled and made myslef happy and soon i was very happy. MountainSpirit realized that i was pissed and she came up to me and said "you're pretending to be happy, but your really not" (well something like that...sorry if i have the words wrong!!!) And the truth was, i was happy. At first, i had to push away my anger to make myself happy, but at that point i was happy. I told her this and she said that it wasn't true happiness then, if it was forced. In a way i agree with this. You shouldn't have to force yourself to be happy. But i did and it made me happy. I like being happy. I like letting things go, and i enjoyed myself, even though i should have been angry and aggressive. However, i am passive.