Im SO SORRRRRRRY

Have you ever done a stupid thing that you later regreted. Well i do, every day. More then once every day, i say something stupid to this person. And i regret it nd hate myself for it. And then i say another thing, a stupid thing, a mean thing, and i regret it. I am an addict. I AM ADDICTED TO BEING MEAN AND TORTURING THIS PERSON. IT IS CRUEL. IT IS MY ADDICTION. IT IS SICK. I NEED TO STOP. I CANT GO ON LIKE THIS. HOWEVER, I WILL NEVER STOP. I CANT. IT IS IMPOSSIBLE.